![]() ![]() And I think that those two things are really refreshing. And I think they’re things other people love about you, and why they listen to you on Sunday on Monday, is because you're funny, and you're honest. And I think people have probably picked up on this already in this conversation, but there are two things that I love about you, Tammy. Well, I think you do such a good job of describing that and that experience. You’re a syllable word, you’re "Mom." I know you should find everything about life so beautiful in that, but it’t wasn't for me. It’s really kind of scary to be you and be awesome and be Morgan, and then you have kids and you're not Morgan anymore. I needed long-suffering and gentleness and I think that the Spirit has helped me to be a better mom and to be a better me, because, Morgan, you lose yourself. Even after having my own two children who I thought it'd be so much easier to raise-it’s not. And the Lord was like, "You need that." And so I have prayed for longsuffering and gentleness, probably every day of being a mom. And two words stood out to me-longsuffering and gentleness. And I went to Galatians, 5:22 and 23 that lists all the fruits of the Spirit. I decided to take it to scripture, and I just started reading all the different ways to feel the Spirit because I felt like I hadn’t felt the Spirit in a long time. I mean, parenting is the worst." He just really empathized. He’s like, it’s hard for me too, being a dad. Watch the Church's video of Tammy's experience below.Īnd I cried, and my husband just looked at me, and he put his hand out to shake my hand and he said, "Well, I want to thank you for giving it a shot." And while most people think that is the rudest answer, I laughed so hard, because that is my favorite thing about my husband, he makes me laugh every single day. And of course, in my mind, I’m looking for a quick getaway, and what clothes am I going to pack and what am I going to need, and I probably need cash, you know, like everything in my head. I don’t think I’m cut out for this." And I just started, you know, sobbing and crying. And I just said, "I can’t do this anymore. ![]() He’s like, "What’s going on?" And I stood up and I’m just sobbing. It was awful.Īnd he walked in the closet. In my mind, I’m like, "There I was a couple of minutes, but I may have been there for a couple hours." Alright, Morgan, I'm not going to lie. This isn’t going to work out."Īnd my husband came home from work and found me in the closet. And these girls hate me and I don't like them. And these kids aren’t obeying me and they don’t love me and they love their mom more than me-well, of course they do.Īnd it kind of became this battle where in my mind, the thoughts came, "They should love you more, you do more for her than their mom is doing right now because she’s passed away." And Satan really did do a number on me to the point where I became really depressed, … and started crying to Heavenly Father and I just said, "I gotta get out of here. I had a couple of little temper tantrums along the way where I thought being single was so much easier. So I think a lot of my pride got in the way. ![]() Yeah, mom’s only three letters much easier to say, it’s only one syllable. And Tammy has a lot more." That’s the best, like I love that. I can remember at one point, she said to her older sister, "Why don't you just call Tammy 'mom,' like, what's your deal? Why won't you just say, 'mom'?" And Anna’s like, "Because I'm not ready to yet."Īnd my husband said to the younger daughter who has cerebral palsy, "Well, why do you call her mom?" And she said, "Because Mom only has three letters. And then our second daughter, she has mild cerebral palsy. So hard, in fact that … I mean, the first couple of years, it took a while for the oldest daughter Anna to call me "Mom," which is fine. It was just like I’m babysitting all day, and then I cleaned a house.Īnd so it was really hard. It just hadn't even registered in my brain that that was something that was important. That was like the most productive I felt I had done-I didn't consider raising kids as productive. Tammy Uzelac Hall: Well, first of all, strange land is a perfect word to describe that, because what in the world? I can remember truly-the first day that my husband went to work and left me with the two little girls, I organized the spice cupboard. So you’ve been really open about how hard that transition was, what got you through that? Or what would be your advice to others who are in a similar situation? Morgan Jones: Speaking of strange lands, Tammy, you became a stepmom to two little girls who were grieving the loss of their mom, which is something I can't imagine at my age. The following excerpt has been edited for clarity.
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